Let's admit it. Most people signed up for a blog just because they wished they would find someone through writing a blog. Someone, worth talking to. And after years of having one, I realized that it's not true at all. I haven't found anyone at all through writing a blog. It's hard to face the fact that the only place that I can be myself is the place where nobody had ever recognized me at all.

So, here I am. Still writing my heart out. Still hoping, childishly, for someone to come along the way and tell me that it's fine. It's fine to wish for something that is so impossible, as long as I still hope that a miracle will happen somewhere in the future.

Ugh, sorry for the cheesy writing. I'm just that kind of person.

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